I always thought that life is a bitch and I am the luckiest dog around but it was such false assumption. How I discovered that I was wrong is another mystery :( . People have fateful days as well as unfateful events. Everything is a preplanned act, with Almighty being the director. I was always an atheist but this place made me something else which I never wanted. Things always worked against me and I never protested,but this time I protested, Yes I protested but I had some unexpected friends on my nemesis list. So here I stand today as a loser, yes gracefully I admit I am a big time loser. I would have survived if I had been even shown the door which I could have accepted but moving out to a support team that too not of my domain and without even asking me once,that was like a big jolt which I never accepted.
Its true that everything is destined and rite now I am having a bad day with my destiny. Lets say it the other way round my destiny is having a play off with me and I am losing badly.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Will I ever learn?
That was the biggest and the toughest question for which I have no answers. Will I ever learn to do the things they ought to be done. I set big targets,I see big dreams. Everyone does but I don't think there would be one freak like me who sets targets and dreams just for the sake of others to see but never had even tried an ounce to do the same.
As usual reached office at 12.15, took a print out of my goals that I had set, of the things I gotta do before 12th oct,2008... the day I would be putting my resignation papers down at my present office. I had always thought of the pros and cons but I never consider myself of having any market value with my present knowledge base. After reaching office I started reading PHP 5.X but just covering one article I started playing solitaire. It sucks big time but even that's a solace for me at the office to pass the bugging 8 hours .I was also listening to the songs of swadesh and suddenly the music player started playing "Pal Pal hai bhari". I was hearing that song after a long period but never ever thot of the meaning the song wanted to lay. And after hearing it for 9-10 times that if I want my dreams to come true than I am the only person responsible for it making them true. I just can't set my targets and then hope everything will be done by itself. I have to work hard to achieve the same. Realising the same I stop bloggin as of this moment and get back to my work ... Hope I would be able to deliver atleast some of my goals.
Adios!
As usual reached office at 12.15, took a print out of my goals that I had set, of the things I gotta do before 12th oct,2008... the day I would be putting my resignation papers down at my present office. I had always thought of the pros and cons but I never consider myself of having any market value with my present knowledge base. After reaching office I started reading PHP 5.X but just covering one article I started playing solitaire. It sucks big time but even that's a solace for me at the office to pass the bugging 8 hours .I was also listening to the songs of swadesh and suddenly the music player started playing "Pal Pal hai bhari". I was hearing that song after a long period but never ever thot of the meaning the song wanted to lay. And after hearing it for 9-10 times that if I want my dreams to come true than I am the only person responsible for it making them true. I just can't set my targets and then hope everything will be done by itself. I have to work hard to achieve the same. Realising the same I stop bloggin as of this moment and get back to my work ... Hope I would be able to deliver atleast some of my goals.
Adios!
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Long time no see
Ouch!! Was the last word that came to my mouth before writing this scrap. Was sleeping in office I fell off from my chair and it was like an embarrasing moment for me.So I rang up nak to tell him how embarrasing.But i was mesmorized again hearing his awesome ringtone. It was too lovely and was cute song...So here's the song lyrics...
Lonely I'm Mr.lonely
I have nobody for my owwnnn
I am so lonely Im Mr. Lonely
I have nobody
for my owwnnn I am so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there man
ya know they got that one good girl dog that's always been there
man like took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more
and decides to leave ya
I woke up in the middle of the night
and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, c
oulda sworn I was dreamin, for her
I was Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride,
back tracking ova these few years,
Tryin figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
cuz Ever since my girl left me
my whole life came crashin and
I'm so lonely (so lonely), Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody(ohhhhhhh)
(I have nobody) to call my own (to call my own)
girl I am so lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody(ohhhhhhhh) (I have nobody)
to call my own (to call my own) girl
I am so lonley ...
Artist: Akon (Lyrics copied from wowlyrics)
Hey nothing there to get worried cos I am still wid the same gal I loved and I am like a big 0 widout her so there's no way getting out of the relationship I am into.
Lonely I'm Mr.lonely
I have nobody for my owwnnn
I am so lonely Im Mr. Lonely
I have nobody
for my owwnnn I am so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there man
ya know they got that one good girl dog that's always been there
man like took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more
and decides to leave ya
I woke up in the middle of the night
and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, c
oulda sworn I was dreamin, for her
I was Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride,
back tracking ova these few years,
Tryin figure out wat I do to make it go bad,
cuz Ever since my girl left me
my whole life came crashin and
I'm so lonely (so lonely), Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody(ohhhhhhh)
(I have nobody) to call my own (to call my own)
girl I am so lonely (so lonely)
Im Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody(ohhhhhhhh) (I have nobody)
to call my own (to call my own) girl
I am so lonley ...
Artist: Akon (Lyrics copied from wowlyrics)
Hey nothing there to get worried cos I am still wid the same gal I loved and I am like a big 0 widout her so there's no way getting out of the relationship I am into.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Fighting back
Well it's like me saying to myself or rather my intellect saying to my heart LTNS but then everyone is not gifted to do all the things all the times.Its like going by the age old saying we can do somethings all the time but not all the things at some point of time.I mite have got that wrong even.
Last yr flew as if blink of the eyes.It saw a great transformation in.The old childish susant was lost somewhere out there in the crowd and a more mature,impatient susant was born.This susant was more boring and frustrated but he had to live wid it.He still remembered the days when he went to sleep after facing the early rays of the sun with a fag in his hand.Those lovely pals and those classes full of shit which he used to attend so that his attendence is not 0%.He was like used to do things all at the last moment.But gone are the days.He finally graduated gracefully and was ready to go up the ladder.He was full of enthusiasm and energy.But once out of the college,he was like lost in the crowd.The same things happened to him as if following the old rules that was reflected by amir's dialogue in RDB... Things went wrong somewhere and he was lost,lost in this vast world trying to fight for his own identity.He lost all battles to get back his identity.So finally it took 4 months of impatience waiting to gain a bit of lost ground.It was his chance of fighting the crowd to mark a difference and to make his own identiy.
So on oct 12th,2006 marked a spl day in his life and he joined a company.Though it was nowhere close to his dream company but atleast it gave him satisfaction that he will be happy joining it and in return he will get a identity of his own.31st oct was the best day in his life.That day marked the first earning of that guy.Though it was quite late as compared to his other friends but he was content.But as time passed and he successfully completed 3 months in his office widout much glitches and also marked and own identity of his own.He was atleast known in his corporate cirlce.Everyone used to relate his face either to a TT player or a smoker or as a bencher.But he was happy and that was the only thing that mattered to him.And as the early rays of the sun marked the beginning of the new yr he was ready to fight back again and to get back his lost identity.Now can he make up any difference is to be seen in near future but my heart says he can achieve anything he want.I believe him but no one knows destiny so me keeping my fingers crossed.
Forfeit the game Before somebody else Takes you out of the frame And puts your name to shame Cover up your face You can't run the race The pace is too fast You just won't last.(Courtesy:Linkin park)
Last yr flew as if blink of the eyes.It saw a great transformation in.The old childish susant was lost somewhere out there in the crowd and a more mature,impatient susant was born.This susant was more boring and frustrated but he had to live wid it.He still remembered the days when he went to sleep after facing the early rays of the sun with a fag in his hand.Those lovely pals and those classes full of shit which he used to attend so that his attendence is not 0%.He was like used to do things all at the last moment.But gone are the days.He finally graduated gracefully and was ready to go up the ladder.He was full of enthusiasm and energy.But once out of the college,he was like lost in the crowd.The same things happened to him as if following the old rules that was reflected by amir's dialogue in RDB... Things went wrong somewhere and he was lost,lost in this vast world trying to fight for his own identity.He lost all battles to get back his identity.So finally it took 4 months of impatience waiting to gain a bit of lost ground.It was his chance of fighting the crowd to mark a difference and to make his own identiy.
So on oct 12th,2006 marked a spl day in his life and he joined a company.Though it was nowhere close to his dream company but atleast it gave him satisfaction that he will be happy joining it and in return he will get a identity of his own.31st oct was the best day in his life.That day marked the first earning of that guy.Though it was quite late as compared to his other friends but he was content.But as time passed and he successfully completed 3 months in his office widout much glitches and also marked and own identity of his own.He was atleast known in his corporate cirlce.Everyone used to relate his face either to a TT player or a smoker or as a bencher.But he was happy and that was the only thing that mattered to him.And as the early rays of the sun marked the beginning of the new yr he was ready to fight back again and to get back his lost identity.Now can he make up any difference is to be seen in near future but my heart says he can achieve anything he want.I believe him but no one knows destiny so me keeping my fingers crossed.
Forfeit the game Before somebody else Takes you out of the frame And puts your name to shame Cover up your face You can't run the race The pace is too fast You just won't last.(Courtesy:Linkin park)
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