Thoughts!!

Had been thinking about this for a long long time. Is everything actually destined ? Or that's our of covering up failures.

On any given day, what is my routine? I play MW till late in the night, go office, work there, nag a lot, do socializing, get back to do work and then back to home then crib again. Why am I like that ? Was that destined? I look above for the answers but even HE is puzzled. I think I do all those things as I like a bit of attention and I love doing these. So does interest/choice takes the driving seat with destiny in the back seat ?

In the last three years, I have worked on four different technologies, it is hard to accommodate all these changes in a short span of time, I learnt all of those but it converted me to a li'l nagging creature. Was that destined ? No. That's my failure at adapting to changes.

Lately have been doing lot of activities on the personal front and professional front as well which gets me appreciation but still I am not at peace with inner self. So all these achievements never makes me happy, its more like a stat then like anything else. With each appreciation rolling, it makes me more shallow from the inner side. I am yet to get result of my KARMA. Every passing day, my soul feels like hallow. Its growing like shadow under the sun which eventually vanishes.
Its like I am running behind a mirage which never existed and for what reason. To be in sync with my Soul. To average out my outgoing mentality and my hallow soul. But the more I try, the more restless I become. Was that destined ? I don't think so.

Lately, I have realized the age old saying that's simple but so true "As you sow, so shall you reap". There's two sides of everything, one positive and one negative. Most people tend to see the neutral side by averaging both of these but that's not how Karma works. It says to ignore the negative things, they will always be there. Allay your fears, take a step forward and accept all the positive things as positivity is in the nature. Positivity is in humanity. Positivity is in mentality.

Destiny is nothing but belief. The successful man is the man who tries, but not destined.

I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something but that something is inside me. I have to feel it, touch it to make things happen. Negativity is like a cancer, if not cured in earlier preemptive stages, its going to be a burden.

" Delineate the concepts of action with detachment and renunciation in actions, both are a means to the same goal. Salvation is attained by the pursuance of these paths." - Lord Krishna